"…for wisdom is more precious than rubies, and nothing you desire can compare with her." (Proverbs 8:11)

Random header image... Refresh for more!

Playing with the Queen of Hearts

January 14, 2016

A song was playing in my head as I woke up this morning: Queen of Hearts, by Juice Newton. It’s a song from the ‘80s and such an odd thing to pop into my mind that I felt it had to be more than a random coincidence, but rather something that God was trying to show me. The lyrics for the chorus are this:

Playing with the queen of hearts
Knowing it ain’t really smart
Joker ain’t the only fool
Who’ll do anything for you

Laying out another lie
Thinking ‘bout a life of crime
That’s what I’ll have to do
To keep me away from you

I asked God to show me what He wanted me to glean from the song and the word “Babylon” kept coming to mind. I know the references to Babylon in Scripture as the mother of all prostitutes and as a city of pride and idolatry, so decided to press in further. I did a Google search for “Babylon queen of hearts.” The first result to come up was about a comic character called the Blood Red Queen of Hearts. The description reads:

The queen of hearts is a demonic entity that possesses and moves from person to person through a playing card. She serves under the god Chaos and wishes to be his queen. Her name was once Jezebel. She resided in ancient Babylon, where she served as the high priestess for the notorious Cult of Chaos. She charmed men and women alike with her enticing beauty, a trait she would use to lure them into her cult and then later sacrifice them to the Mad-god Chaos.

The description goes on to say that she wanted immortality and continues to serve Chaos, even though he would not make her his queen, by providing human hearts in sacrifice. Scripture tells us that the heart is deceitful above all things (Jeremiah 17:9), and we also know that the devil is the father of chaos. As I was reading the description of the comic character, the following passage came to mind:

Do not love the world or the things in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him. For all that is in the world – the lust of the flesh, the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life – is not of the Father but is of the world. And the world is passing away, and the lust of it; but he who does the will of God abides forever. (1 John 2:15-17)

I believe the song was a warning for myself and others not to be deceived by a Jezebel spirit, even in the church, or lured by worldly things, but rather to keep our eyes fixed firmly on Christ and seek only to do the Father’s will. Many will be tempted and deceived in these last days, and many will fall away from the faith (1 Timothy 4:1, Matthew 24:10), but for those who remain steadfast, there is a great reward in heaven.

During a study I did this past spring, I learned that the Hebrew letters that spell the word shalom (Shin, Lamed, Vav, Mem sofit) together mean, “To break/destroy the authority that binds us to chaos.” Yeshua is sar shalom, the Prince of Peace (Isaiah 9:6), and we must stand on God’s Word, holding fast to His perfect peace through prayer and supplication as we face the trials to come.

Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand. (Ephesians 6:13)

January 14, 2016   No Comments

Kill the Cookie Monster

If you have ever spent any time on the Internet, you probably know about cookies. Cookies are little bits of code that are deposited into your Internet browser when you visit a website. They include information like which pages you visited, so that the next time you go to that website, the pages load faster. A lot of cookies are pretty harmless, but some of them can insert pieces of code that are unwanted, like programming that pushes advertisements or suggests content that you don’t want to see. Those are little monsters that can wreak havoc if you don’t clear them out of your system.

In the same way, we all have cookies in our brains. These are bits of information that we carry around with us based on previous experiences. Like a computer, our minds unconsciously load in that data when we come across the same or similar people, places and events as we encountered in the past. Our browsing history in the world informs our present experiences. The problem is that some of those little cookie monsters have made their way into our thoughts, as well, and we need to clear them out if we’re going to function properly.

Computer_Cookies

A Familiar Pattern
As an example, I stored away a lot of cookies in my mind and my emotions based on my experiences as a young girl. My parents divorced when I was a toddler, and my father raised me as a single parent until he remarried when I was 11. He tried hard to take good care of me by providing me a safe home and a quality education, and he loved me very much. But he was also pretty far out of his element. See, my father had a short fuse when it came to his temper. He would seem to blow up for no reason. And, as a little girl, that meant I was walking on eggshells because I never knew what was going to set him off. I didn’t want to make daddy mad.

Mad was loud. Loud was scary. Angry = scary.

Years later, when I was a junior in college, I rented a house off campus with three other girls. One morning while I was eating breakfast, one of my roommates came storming downstairs to give me a piece of her mind. I don’t remember the topic—something to do with her right to have her boyfriend hang out at the house when she wasn’t there, I think—but I do remember that she was loud. Really loud. And suddenly, I was six years old again.

I didn’t engage in the argument; I maintained a calm demeanor as she vented all over me for a good five minutes. But after she stormed out the front door, I turned into a quivering mass of Jell-O. I was literally shivering for the next hour, my teeth chattering as if the air were 12 degrees, because angry meant scary. My father had unwittingly deposited a cookie in my mind, and it triggered all the old code, overriding my later life experiences or adult reason.

Time to Clear the Cache
We all have those kinds of cookies, the tapes that play in our head that tell us who we are, how we are to behave, and what we are and are not capable of. Because of my upbringing and things I experienced when I was younger, I carried some very irrational fears into adulthood, along with unmerited feelings of shame. Although I am an accomplished woman in both my personal and professional life, I would find myself stricken with near paralyzing pangs of inadequacy at the most awkward times, ruining what should have been fun and exciting occasions for growth.

Over the years, I have looked for opportunities to “clear the cache” in my mind and get rid of those unwanted cookies. Usually, that meant stepping outside of my comfort zone and facing the fear head on. In my 20s, one of those fears was talking on the phone. I absolutely dreaded calling people, especially strangers, for fear that I would say something wrong and sound stupid. My aversion to the telephone verged on a phobia.

Although at the time I was virtually incapable of calling a taxi or ordering a pizza, I did not want fear to keep me from achieving my goals. I decided to take an internship in public relations, which required me to make phone calls every day. I literally used to write out every word of what I wanted to say on a yellow legal pad before dialing the phone, so I could steel myself for the conversation. The process was emotionally painful, but with repeated practice, the task became easier. I relied less and less on my self-invented script and was able to improvise more. Those skills served me in good stead years later, when I became a journalist and frequently had to arrange interviews by phone. Today, I can call strangers without breaking a sweat. I have also learned from my husband how to brighten the day of the person on the other end of the line through humor and a positive attitude, so that making phone calls is no longer something I dread, but an opportunity to be a blessing.

Renewing Your Mind
If you are being held back by fear or self-defeating behaviors, I challenge you to kill the cookie monster. Root out those old tapes and bits of malicious code, and replace them with new information. Ephesians 2:10 says, “we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.” Believe God today that you are competent, capable, and perfectly made in the Creator’s eyes. Get those unwanted cookies out of your head, and be transformed by the renewal of your mind!

Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. (Philippians 4:8)

February 1, 2015   No Comments